Her husband divorced her by talaaq and she married another man during the ‘iddah

 

I am a reverted sister living alone at the moment. I left my country to marry a man in another country. After a short time, my family started to make major problems for me, that could have caused bad problems for my husband or myself, so I left without his permission, and went back to my country. I was certain I could never go back to my husband, but I was in love with him, and missed him a lot. I decided to try to make things work for everyone. I started to talk again to my husband, and told him I wanted to return. He agreed. Problem after problem kept coming up though, and my return was always delayed for reasons beyond my control. During this time, my husband became impatient and divorced me twice. He stopped supporting me also after some time, and wouldnt allow me to find work in my country, so I was left at the mercy of whatever I could get from others to live on. My family was putting a lot of pressure on me, since they even didnt like to support me, as it isnt in our culture for the kids to stay home for long after finishing school. I was alone, and had no way to support myself. Even though I knew I was in love with my husband, I was forced to marry someone else, at least LEGALLY in my country, so I could be taken care of. I regret this action, since the man and I werent together, and we did not love each other. But I was afraid to fall into haraam, and fell into it anyways by doing this horrendous act. I am trying to fix it now, by legal divorce. However, I do not know what to do, in order for everyone to have their rights. My imaan has fallen away lately, and I am afraid of losing my Islam. I know in Islam there is severe punishment for such an act as what I did, and I need to know does that apply for my situation. I was very new to Islam when all this happened. I am also unsure if I should tell anyone what I actually did, since I was told we conceal our sins in Islam. Please help me, as I am losing my mind more every day.

Praise be to Allaah.

Some Muslims celebrate the middle of Sha‘baan, fasting on
that day and spending that night in prayer (qiyaam). There is a hadeeth
concerning that which is not saheeh, hence the scholars regarded celebrating
this day as an innovation (bid ‘ah). 

Muhammad ‘Abd al-Salaam al-Shuqayri said: Imam al-Fatni said
in Tadhkirat al-Mawdoo‘aat: Among the innovations that have been
introduced on “Laylat an-Nusf”  (mid-Sha‘baan) is al-Salaat al-Alfiyyah,
which is one hundred rak‘ahs in which Soorat al-Ikhlaas is recited ten times
in each rak‘ah, offered in congregation; they pay more attention to this
than to Jumu‘ah and Eid prayers, although there is no report concerning it,
except da‘eef (weak) and mawdoo‘ (fabricated) reports, and we should not be
deceived by the fact that these reports were quoted by the authors of
al-Qoot and al-Ihya’ and others, nor should we be deceived by
what was mentioned in Tafseer al-Tha‘labi, that it is Laylat al-Qadr. End
quote. 

Al-‘Iraaqi said: The hadeeth about the prayer on Laylat
al-Nisf (mid-Sha‘baan) is false. Ibn al-Jawzi narrated it in
al-Mawdoo‘aat (which is a compilation of fabricated hadeeths): 

Chapter on the hadeeth, prayer and supplication on Laylat
al-Nisf:

The hadeeth, “When the night of ‘nisf Sha‘baan’
(mid-Sha‘baan) comes, spend the night in prayer and fast on that day” was
narrated by Ibn Maajah from ‘Ali. Muhashiyyah said: (It was also narrated)
in al-Zawaa’id. Its isnaad is da‘eef (weak) because of the weakness
of Ibn Abi Basrah, of whom Ahmad and Ibn Ma‘een said: He fabricates hadeeth.
End quote. 

Praying six rak‘ahs on Laylat al-Nisf with the intention of
warding off calamity, having a long life and being independent of people,
and reciting Ya-Seen and offering du‘aa’ in between that -- there is no
doubt that this is something that has been introduced into the religion and
is contrary to the Sunnah of the Messenger of Allah (blessings and peace of
Allah be upon him). The commentator on al-Ihya’ said: This prayer is
well known in the books of later Sufi masters, but I have not seen any
saheeh report in the Sunnah to support it and the connected du‘aa’. Rather
this is the action of some shaykhs. Our companions said: It is makrooh to
gather on any of the nights mentioned in the mosques or elsewhere. Al-Najm
al-Ghayti said, describing spending the night of al-Nisf min Sh‘baan
(mid-Sha‘baan) praying in congregation: That was denounced by most of the
scholars of the Hijaz, including ‘Ata’ and Ibn Abi Mulaykah, the fuqaha’ of
Madinah and the companions of Maalik. They said: All of that is an
innovation (bid‘ah) and there is no report to suggest that the Prophet spent
that night in praying in congregation or that his Companions did that
either. Al-Nawawi said: The prayers of Rajab and Sha‘baan are two
reprehensible innovations. End quote from al-Sunan wa’l-Mubtada‘aat,
p. 144 

Al-Fatni (may Allah have mercy on him) said, after the
comments quoted above: The common folk are so infatuated with this prayer
that they stored up a lot of fuel for it and many evils resulted from it,
and many transgressions are committed which we do no need to describe. (It
is so bad that) the close friends of Allah feared His punishment and fled
into the wilderness. The first time this prayer occurred was in Bayt
al-Maqdis (Jerusalem) in 448 AH. Zayd ibn Aslam said: We never saw any of
our shaykhs or fuqaha’ saying that Laylat al-Baraa’ah (15 Sha‘baan) had any
superiority over other nights. Ibn Dihyah said: The hadeeths about the
prayer on Laylat al-Baraa’ah are fabricated and one has an interruption in
the isnaad. Anyone who acts upon a report which is known to be false is a
servant of the Shaytaan.

End quote from Tadhkirat al-Mawdoo‘aat by al-Fatni, p.
45 

See: al-Mawdoo‘aat by Ibn al-Jawzi, 2/127;
al-Manaar al-Muneef fil Saheeh wa’l-Da‘eef by Ibn al-Qayyim, p. 98;
al-Fawaa’id al-Majmoo‘ah by al-Shawkaani, p. 51 

Some people use the word al-Sha‘baaniyyah to refer to the
last days of Sha‘baan, and say, “These are the days of bidding farewell to
food,” and they take advantage of these days to eat a lot before Ramadan
begins. Some scholars say that this idea was originally taken from the
Christians, who used to do that as their fasting period (Lent) approached. 

To sum up, there is no celebration in Sha‘baan and there is
no special act of worship to be performed in the middle of it or during the
last days of the month. Doing that is an innovation that has been introduced
into the religion. 

And Allah knows best.